The reality star is struggling with the end of her relationship

Chantelle Houghton is finding it difficult to cope after splitting from fiancé Alex Reid.

The Celebrity Big Brother winner says it’s hard looking after baby Dolly while dealing with the break-up and that being alone when her daughter wakes up at night is a ‘horrible reminder’.

‘It’s like the saying, I’ve been to hell and back and I feel like I’m in that hell now,’ says Chantelle, 29.

‘I know I can see the future and I will be happy again, but right now, things are really tough.’

Chantelle admits that things went ‘from bad to worse’ before she and Alex, 37, ended their engagement last month and that he’d become a ‘different person’ from when they first met.

She wants Alex and 4-month-old Dolly to have a relationship but has ruled out any chance of a reconciliation between herself and the cage fighter.

‘I loved Alex. The day I met him, I fell for him and I love him now. But this is where we are,’ Chantelle told ITV show This Morning.

‘What’s done is done and there isn’t any way back.’

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