Rapper Professor Green has revealed how his dad's suicide seven years ago has caused him to put off having babies with wife Millie Mackintosh
Professor Green has confessed that he’s put off having babies with wife Millie Mackintosh out of fear in the wake of his dad’s suicide.
The rapper – who’s dad sadly killed himself seven years ago, aged just 43 – also revealed he is undergoing therapy in order to ‘fix’ himself before the couple take the next step and have kids.
Speaking to the Mail on Sunday, Pro Green said: ‘I think there’s a genetic link with depression and suicide. My dad did it and his brother did it.
‘I haven’t yet had suicidal thoughts although there have been a lot of dark, difficult days over the years.’
He added: ‘I felt it was right to take precautions by going to therapy and trying to fix myself, because – being happily married – children are the next logical step. But I can’t escape the fact that I am a product of my dad and I don’t want to pass this on.’
The star – who married former Made In Chelsea star Millie in 2013 – also revealed that it’s only now he realises how deep an affect his father’s death has had on him.
Recalling the day he found out the devastating news, he said: ‘I remember when my nan came into my room crying and told me that my dad had hanged himself.
‘I punched the wall and this anger came over me, followed by confusion and then wondering what had been so bad that he had to take his own life.’
Yet, although she shares that Millie says he’ll make a great father, the Prof insists that it’s not up to his wife to ‘fix’ him.
He said: ‘We’ve been married two years, but I’ve always kept [my dad’s suicide] out of our relationship.
‘There was one time early on when my nan brought out my embarrassing childhood pictures and we came across one of me and my dad, and I burst into tears. But it is not up to Millie to fix me. Only I can do that.’