John Caddock was willing the star to survive

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Jade Goody‘s grandad still can’t believe she’s gone.

John Caddock, 70, never stopped wishing the Big Brother star would recover.

‘I was hoping for a miracle, right up until she died,’ he says. ‘But it never came.

And he doesn’t ever think he’ll get over her passing.

‘I don’t sleep. So I just sit here and think about Jade. I will grieve for her forever.

‘I can’t express what the loss of that girl is going to do – and not just for me.

‘The world is going to be a sadder place without her.’

Jade‘s funeral will be held at St John The Baptist Church in Buckhurst Hill, Essex, on 4 April.

She leaves behind sons Bobby, 5, and Freddie, 4. 

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