Geordie Shore’s party-animal Holly Hagan opens up even more about her harrowing past
The 22-year-old northern lass, who has previously opened-up about her suicidal teenage years uploaded a photo of an upsetting short-story.
The Instagram picture that Holly posted, alongside the caption ‘Keep fighting’, said:
‘At 6 she wanted to be a ballerina; at 8 she wanted to be a veterinarian; at 10 she wanted to be a teacher; at 13 she wanted to be pretty; at 16 she wanted to be dead.’
The picture continued with:
‘But, at 18 she graduates high school; at 20 she studies for her final; at 22 she gets her diploma; at 24 she finds her career; at 26 she whispers ‘I do’; at 28 she holds her new born child; at 30 she wipes her tears and says I made it.’
Eeesh. We’re kinda lost for words. Assuming that Holly is referring to herself in this distressing post, we just wanna give the gorgeous Newcastle lady a big bear-hug and hope the dream of those next few years come true.
In her autobiography, Not Quite A Geordie, Holly speaks out about self-harming and how years of intense bullying pushed Holly to the edge.
Referring to a specific moment when she locked herself in a bathroom after being terrorised by bullies, Holly revealed:
‘I went home that evening and closed myself in the bathroom. I looked in the mirror, at my face that was awash with tears and mascara.’
‘The more I looked at myself, the more disgusted I became with my reflection before me. My eyes lit on a razor that was next to the bathroom cabinet. Before I knew it I’d taken the blade out and held it up to the light carefully between my first two fingers.’
Holly then revealed that she made a ‘deep cut and watched as the blood trickled out.’
‘It was like an instant release,’ confessed the reality star.
Holly, we reckon you’re just perfect.