To celebrate Father's Day, ex-TOWIE star Dan Osborne pens an open letter to his children Teddy, 17 months, and three-month old Ella
Dear Teddy & Ella,
Everyone knows how much you mean to me. It’s more than I can ever explain. You’re absolutely everything to me you’re my world. I couldn’t imagine my life without you. Even when I’m not with you, I’m always thinking of you or looking at photos of you.
Some people think that just because I’m 23 I’m too young to have children, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. I’d always choose to sit indoors with you both than do absolutely anything else.
From the moment I open my eyes, you’re the first thing I think about. I jump out of bed because I can’t wait to see you. I’ll go and get you from your cots and bring you into my bed and we’ll lie there together and go back to sleep. You never fail to put a smile on my face even if I’m having a bad day, you make everything good.
Teddy, you’re not always with us and it’s really hard for me to be without you, but we have three days a week together. When I have to take you home to your mum’s, it’s the worst feeling in the world. I have to go to the gym just to take my mind off it. When you call me ‘Dad’ it’s so amazing especially when I walk out of the room to the go to the toilet and all I can hear is: ‘Daaaaaaad!’
Looking at photos of you helps get me through the days when I can’t be with you. You’re so lucky, Teddy you have two families who love you like crazy so you have two birthdays and two Christmases and get double the presents and double the love. It’s hard for me to explain to you now, but when you grow up, I hope you appreciate it was the right thing to do for me not to be with your mum. We weren’t in a good relationship and I didn’t want us to be miserable, so I hope you understand it’s for the best this way.
There’s nothing I want more than to spend every day with you. As I write this, I’m in Greece on holiday with Ella and her mum Jacqueline [Jossa]. Ella, you’re so beautiful. It makes my day when I see you smile.
You’re always laughing and it’s so amazing to see you so happy. It’d be perfect if you were here too, Teddy, but next year we’ll all go on a big family holiday together, I promise.
When I see you both together it’s beautiful. You’re so cute. A while ago I feared you might never meet each other and it was heartbreaking, so I know how lucky I am that you get to spend as much time together as possible.
Teddy, you’re going to be such a protective older brother. When Ella cries, you always pop her dummy back into her mouth and when she’s sitting down, you’re always holding her hands and pushing your face into her belly to make her laugh.
You never call her ‘Ella’ you just call her ‘Aww’. It’s so cute. When we’re on the way home in the car you keep saying ‘Aww’ because you get excited knowing you’re going to see her.
All I want in my life is for you both to be happy. My heart would be broken if I ever saw either of you upset, so I’ll do all I can to give you everything you want and I will bring you up the best I can.
I know you’ll make mistakes in life, but I’ll try my best to guide you so you don’t make the same mistakes as me. I want to teach you what you should and shouldn’t do. I want you to have good manners, be nice to people and always be polite. Whatever you want to do in your life, I’ll always support you.
I wasn’t a bad lad at school but I want you to do better than me. I don’t want you to be rude or have attitude I just want you to be the best you can be. Most importantly, I want you to appreciate things, especially all your mum and I do for you.
Everything we do is for you. I really hope that whenever you think: ‘I wonder what to do?’ you ask me. I want to be the first person you come to.
When I look back two years and think of my life without you it’s awful. You’re the best things that ever happened to me you’ve changed my whole life.
I’ll let you both grow up a bit and maybe we’ll have more brothers and sisters for you. I’d love to give you at least two more but if I could have more children who are as amazing as you, I’d have 100 of them.