Amanda Holden has revealed how therapy helped her through her darkest times

She’s currently on a career-high thanks to her judging panel-spot on Britain’s Got Talent and presenting slots on This Morning, but national sweetheart Amanda Holden is no stranger to pain and heartache.

In a new interview with Good Housekeeping, the blonde TV queen, 44, has opened up about some of her darkest moments – and how she coped.

Amanda, who is mother to nine-year-old Alexa and Hollie, three, famously suffered a miscarriage in 2011. She tragically gave birth to a stillborn baby, Theo, at seven months.

And Amanda, who married record producer Chris Hughes in 2008, nearly died during giving birth to Holly because she lost a dangerous amount of blood. 

She was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and has credited therapy for getting her through.

She told the magazine: ‘It makes you suddenly think, “I have to live. I’ve got to live, but I’ve got to try and live a good, happy life for me too,” and I think that’s why I faced up to the fact that I needed to speak to somebody. It was a really good thing. I’m probably too open but I have no secrets.

‘My therapist told me I had no more tools or coping mechanism left. She was very good at giving me sentences to say to myself to make me stop panicking about my own mortality.’

The yoga-fanatic sits on the BGT panel with David WalliamsSimon Cowell and Alesha Dixon. She added:

‘If it had just been me and Chris and I’d died, it would have been awful for him but nowhere near as bad as a child losing their mother. You have none of these worries unless you’ve got children.’

She also ruled out the possibility of trying for another child. ‘I’m not allowed,’ she said. ‘I would be dead the next time. I’ve got the two I’m supposed to have. I just had to complete my family to feel like I could be me.’

No doubt this wasn’t an easy subject for Amanda to talk about, but we’re sure it will touch a nerve with other women. We salute you, Amanda!

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