BB star Nikki Grahame speaks out about her 'torment'
Last year Nikki Grahame was delighted because she’d put on almost half a stone.
At a dress size 4, the Ultimate Big Brother runner-up is hardly ever likely to be described as ‘curvy’.
But Nikki felt positively womanly.
‘I used to have the figure of an eight-year-old girl, but now I feel a lot more feminine,’ she told us.
‘I haven’t got protruding shoulder or hip bones any more and I’ve finally got a bottom!
‘I weigh almost 6½st, which is nearly the heaviest I’ve ever been – and I feel great.’
Now, though, Nikki’s back in the grip of anorexia.
The Big Brother 2007 contestant, who’s fought the eating disorder since she was a young girl, became unwell after a recent operation to remove a bunion.
‘I couldn’t exercise for 3 months so I started to panic that I’d get fat,’ reveals Nikki, 29.
‘So I cut my food down by half.
‘Then, as soon as I could, I started exercising to a ridiculous degree.’
Nikki admits she has a ‘phobia’ of consuming more than 400 calories at a time and is unable to sleep if she hasn’t done enough exercise.
‘It’s completely controlling me,’ she says. ‘I have to know where and when I’ll be eating, at least 2 days in advance, so I can gear myself up mentally.
‘I’m tormented. All I think about is this regimented schedule.’
Nikki is seeking help and has checked herself into an eating disorder clinic.
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