Loyal friend Matt Fiddes reveals Michael's chilling premonition: he knew he wouldn't see his children grow up

It’s been four years since Michael Jackson was found dead, aged 50, from an accidental drugs overdose in his LA home.

Since then, his doctor Conrad Murray‘s been jailed; his 15-year-old daughter Paris has tried to commit suicide; and his family are at the centre of a £25 billion wrongful death lawsuit against AEG Live, the promoters behind his huge 50-date concert series, for which the fragile star was preparing when he tragically died.

Now, in an exclusive interview, MJ‘s former bodyguard Matt Fiddes has revealed a shock new twist: Michael had chillingly predicted his own premature death and knew that he wouldn’t live long enough to see his children Paris, Prince Michael, 16, and Blanket, 11, grow up.

made the emotional confession to his longstanding friend and former bodyguard Matt, 34, just three days before his death from a prescription drugs overdose on 25 June 2009.

Speaking to Now, Swindon-born Matt opens up about their last conversation and how Michael was secretly terrified that he hadn’t been a good dad.

Michael was like any dad who loved his children,’ says Matt.

‘He worried about them constantly.

‘His kids were his life and his two eldest Prince and Paris were just about to enter their teens.

Michael realised that he’d never live long enough to see them grow into adults.

‘With the pressure of his London comeback concerts and his poor health, Michael wasn’t in a good way at all.

‘The drugs and drinking had taken their toll on his body both mentally and physically.

‘At his lowest ebb, when we spoke, he voiced his fears and just days later he passed.

‘The children were his life and he hated the fact that he wouldn’t be there to protect and nurture them.

‘I think he felt he’d failed them.’

Prince last month gave evidence in the trial against AEG Live, which denies any wrongdoing or blame for Michael‘s death.

It was also revealed by a family chef that Paris hasn’t celebrated her birthday since her dad died.

‘That shows the tremendous bond that Michael had with the children and the hole that’s been left in their lives by his death,’ says Matt.

Michael used to love celebrating Paris‘s birthdays as she was his only daughter.

‘He’d put on Disney-themed parties and invite all her friends.

‘There’d be jelly, ice cream, cakes and of course lots of pink balloons, which the little girls loved.

‘He often called her his “little princess” and was a doting dad.

‘I think the fact that Paris hasn’t celebrated her birthday for four years shows just how much she misses him.’

And Matt believes Michael would’ve been devastated by Paris‘s recent attempt to take her own life.

‘He would’ve been distraught over her suicide attempt.

‘But he felt equally as close to Prince and Blanket,’ says Matt.

Read more about Michael Jackson in this week’s Now magazine dated 15 July 2013 – download the digital edition now!


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