The X Factor judge Kelly Rowland would like to reconnect with her father Christopher Lovett

Kelly Rowland has opened up about life without a father figure.

The new X Factor judge has been estranged from her dad Christopher Lovett ever since he walked out on his family 2 decades ago.

‘I haven’t seen my dad for almost 20 years,’ says Kelly, 30.

‘It’s nothing I want a pity party for. He left me and my mum, and I was angry. I wanted to be a daddy’s girl so bad.

‘God damn The Cosby Show because that made me think “Why aren’t my family like that?” But this is not a perfect world.’

But Kelly – who admits there was a time when she didn’t have a close relationship with her mum either – says she’s hopeful of patching things up with her dad.

‘He reached out to me saying he wanted to see me,’ she tells Cosmopolitan.

‘I want to meet him, and soon, I really do. I forgave him a long time ago.’

When she was 8, Kelly also moved in with Destiny’s Child bandmate Beyoncé Knowles and her family.  

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