The girl behind the surgery talks to Now…
Surgery among young female reality stars is more common than not these days, but what pushes these girls to alter their appearances beyond repair? Marnie Simpson is best known as one of the feisty Geordie Shore girls, but on our exclusive shoot, she’s worlds away from her on-screen persona.
Despite Marnie’s agent approaching Now to do a naked shoot, her insecurities are immediately apparent. From the way she stands to the marks on her body she obsesses over, even down to the type of underwear she will and won’t wear – we’ve never seen this side of the 25-year-old.
‘I never think I look nice,’ says Marnie. ‘I know I’ve got nice hair, but that’s about it.’ It’s heartbreaking to hear a young woman talk about herself like this, but Marnie is strikingly honest about the surgery she’s had in order to achieve what she thinks is perfection and how some of these procedures have gone horrifically wrong, leaving her hating her body even more than before.
During a recent appearance on Channel 5’s Botched Up Bodies, Marnie opened up about the disturbing effects of her breast lift, which saw them ooze green pus. After spending a fortune on various operations, Marnie confesses she’s on the slippery slope to becoming obsessed with surgery. But just how far will she have to go before she’s happy?
Marnie, talk us through the procedures you’ve had…
I’ve had a nose job, lip fillers, a boob lift and liposuction. I did try Botox, but I didn’t like what it did to my face – it made me look really odd.
Where did you have Botox and why did it look funny?
I had it in my forehead but it made my face look frozen. I’m 25, I don’t need that.
What came first?
I plumped my lips first and at one point I went really overboard with them. I thought they looked great until I saw them on Geordie Shore. They’ll never be the same again; I’ve ruined my lips.
How have you ruined them?
Even though I’ve had the filler dissolved, my lips are still bigger than they were originally. Because of how much I had they’ll never look the same as before.
How did you feel after having your breast lift?
When I came out of surgery I thought I was going to have perfect boobs, but now I know that’s just not how it works. Surgery isn’t like that – nothing will ever be perfect. But because I had an image in my head, I got really upset afterwards.
That procedure went wrong – tell us what happened…
The scars afterwards looked like someone had got a knife and cut jagged lines into my skin. When I took the bandages off it wasn’t so bad because it was still new, but it just never got better.
It looks like they’ve cleared up now. How do you feel about them?
They’re much better now but I’m still very insecure about them. It’s a mental thing – I’ve got it in my head that they look terrible.
Do you regret having them done in the first place?
I regret the fact that they went wrong, but I’ve always been insecure about my boobs. If I was ever naked in front of a man I’d leave my bra on but take my knickers off.
The operations on your nose, lips and breasts all went wrong – why didn’t that put you off having more?
I don’t know. Even if I went back in time I don’t know if I wouldn’t have the surgery. But I would do it differently: I’d research and make sure that I do everything right. I wouldn’t get unnecessary things – if I could go back, maybe I wouldn’t have the liposuction or the boob lift…
Tell us about the liposuction…
Basically, I was skinny everywhere else but I had a big stomach. I just couldn’t get rid of it, but if I’d lost weight my arms and legs I would’ve looked anorexic. I wanted to maintain the weight I was but without the stomach. I’ve still got a bit more to do with the lipo…
Did it hurt?
It was the most painful thing I’ve had done. The recovery time was a good three weeks and I was bed-bound for that. I’ve never felt pain like it.
Are you finished with the liposuction now?
I’ve still got a bit more to go. At the moment, the skin where I had it [stomach] is discoloured and lumpy. I have to have massages on that area to speed up the recovery process and return the skin to normal.
Are you happy with the way you look now?
I don’t think I’ll ever be happy with how I look. I only see faults when I look in the mirror – I never see any of the positives. I have nice hair, but that’s about it.
Do you think you’re addicted to surgery?
I’ve got body dysmorphia. I don’t know what’s triggered it but I think it must be surgery. After changing one thing about myself I’ll look in the mirror and see a fault I’d never noticed before.
Can you get control of that?
At the moment the only thing stopping me from getting more surgery is the fact that I know I’ll never be happy with the way I look, so it’s becoming a waste of money. I’m trying to focus my attention on more important things, like buying a house.
What else has changed as a result of surgery?
My vagina! Since having the lipo it’s got really fat from the swelling. I hope it goes down, but one thing just leads to another. I wouldn’t want a designer vagina, though. I’ve never had any complaints…
What do you think about the young girls who regard you as a role model?
I’m not happy that girls look up to me and I worry about being seen as a role model. People shouldn’t look up to me or copy me. I don’t think they should look up to any of us on Geordie Shore – it’s just a carnage TV show.
When was the last time you were truly happy with the way you look?
It was long before I was on TV, when I was about 19. Before going on Geordie Shore I was dead confident, but I remember seeing myself on TV for the first time and thinking: ‘I’m sure I’m better looking than that.’
Have you ever felt pressured by a man to change your appearance?
My boyfriends have always been really supportive of how I look. It’s just my mentality.
What’s going on with you and Lewis Bloor?
We break up and get back together all the time. I love him and I’ve never been in a situation like this. Our situation is always changing but I’d love to work through the issues. I’m not sure it will ever be fully over between us…
How does he help your insecurities?
He always tells me I’m beautiful, but at the same time he’s really honest. He told me to have my lip fillers dissolved and he doesn’t want me to get more surgery – he’s really against it.
Are you someone who needs to be in a relationship?
After I split with Ricky [Rayment] I was single for about a year and a half and that’s the longest time I’ve been on my own. Before that I always went from one relationship to the next. I don’t do well being single and I think it’s quite unhealthy.
What’s the most important part of a relationship for you?
A healthy relationship is built on personalities. It’s important to be with someone who builds you up – but I need constant reassurance. You can’t just do things for other people – you have to do them for you.
What’s next for your career?
I don’t know how long I’ll be doing Geordie Shore. I love the show but I hate Marty [McKenna]! The fact that he’s in it makes me not want to be a part of it. And I know I’ve got more friends in that house than him. It shouldn’t be me leaving.
Is there anything you really want to do after the show?
As long as I buy a house and maybe set up a business then I’ll be happy. I’ll move somewhere hot eventually. I would do it now but I want to take the situation I’m in for everything it is. I want to milk it for everything I can.
What do you think you’ll need to do in order to be truly happy?
When I get to a certain age I’m going to get really fat and just be happy. Old and fat! I actually can’t wait until that day comes, until I’m past it. But for now, I just wish I didn’t care.